just one of those days

today is just one of those days where you didn’t want to wake up because you knew you’d wake up depressed

and then you can’t go back to sleep
so you think about how badly you’ve messed your own life up
and you can’t stop crying

and then you start to hate yourself for feeling so sorry for yourself
and you hate yourself for not being more optimistic while the day outside is so beautiful because you’re just being a little bitch
and you want so badly to spend your day with someone but you remember that you’re no longer allowed to depend on others on account of the things you’ve done and the emotions you’ve felt

so now you feel selfish and alone
but that’s how everyone truly is, no matter what kind of person you are
but you still feel like a burden and everyone else seems to be doing fine without you
and you try so hard to figure out what’s so wrong with you but you just don’t know

the day is still beautiful and you’re still crying
and then you shut down completely and

yeah— just of those days

BACK ON TOP OF THE TABLE
right where we belong

i couldnt be any more proud of my boys
this club is my everything

BACK ON TOP OF THE TABLE
right where we belong

i couldnt be any more proud of my boys
this club is my everything

framing this because this nigga keeps saving my life with these words of his

all nurture, no lecture
sometimes that’s what some of us needs

framing this because this nigga keeps saving my life with these words of his

all nurture, no lecture
sometimes that’s what some of us needs

"i need you to be happy. can you do that for me?"

"so you just really miss me? i miss you too."

"i need to go soon but i never really want to leave here. there’s something about this place."

gpoyfirstdayofspring2014: wow it’s been a while since i’ve done one of these

on some days, life is bleh.
on other days, life is yeah!
just remember that no matter what happens, you’re an invaluable person.
and i mean that to every single one of you (or like whoever reads this idk).

gpoyfirstdayofspring2014: wow it’s been a while since i’ve done one of these

on some days, life is bleh.
on other days, life is yeah!
just remember that no matter what happens, you’re an invaluable person.
and i mean that to every single one of you (or like whoever reads this idk).

everyone is worth something
NEVER let anyone tell you otherwise

fuck relapsing
and fuck the things that trigger it
as long as you’re trying to be the best person you can be, you’re completely valuable and someone loves you

always remember that

the best

the best

i always have horrible dreams when i fall asleep while waiting eternities for you but then i get pleasant dreams when we fall asleep together

we’re tragic but i adore you

my school did this really cool thing yesterday.

at first, everyone was like what the heck when they put up this random wall of aluminum fencing. then people started tying ribbons onto the fence. when i got a closer look, the ribbons had drawings or written words of people’s thoughts, aspirations, and positive messages. it wasn’t exclusive and there were no boundaries as to what you decide to share with everyone.

it was actually really beautiful and i hope it’s still up today.

my school did this really cool thing yesterday.

at first, everyone was like what the heck when they put up this random wall of aluminum fencing. then people started tying ribbons onto the fence. when i got a closer look, the ribbons had drawings or written words of people’s thoughts, aspirations, and positive messages. it wasn’t exclusive and there were no boundaries as to what you decide to share with everyone.

it was actually really beautiful and i hope it’s still up today.

it was the second time i’ve ever seen you cry
the first time was out of raging anger and frustration with me
but this time, it broke my heart to see you react the way you did

you finally met my soul mate in music and in life
you finally saw me in my natural element
you finally saw what sliding and curving my voice does for me
you finally saw the absurd giddiness i get from deciding harmonies
you finally saw a natural chemistry between two voices that resonated so well with each other
you sat there and listened to us express pure bliss for each other’s presence
you finally saw my genuine happiness

you saw beauty in our duet
you witnessed real love
not romantic love, not lustful love
you witnessed a love that mere words won’t be able to do justice
you saw us love each other through our music
you saw us love each other through our stories of one another
and you saw us love each other through our painful goodbye
you saw a love that you wish you could give me
then you cried

i wiped away your tears and held you
despite all that you’ve done to me
you then declared so much love and care for me
that same love and care from when i met your deepest layer
you’ve never seen me so happy
it was highly unusual of me and you didn’t know what to do
so you cried 
everyone wants to be loved
and they will be loved no matter what
but to give love;
for you, i know what to do

i’ve been waiting to come back and now i have
i finally went back to being the me i was before i met you
who knows what’s going to happen
but i will remember yesterday morning the most
but just know this:
no matter what happens
i will give you the same love you witnessed
and i will try my best to always be
your favorite version of me

1 year

your eyes are hazel with flecks of green and yellow

you told me a while back that your irises form images of flower petals

yeah, i did see them
and then last night, you told me to take a good look at them again

first, i looked into your left eye

it made me feel warm and welcomed
your left eye was lively and profound

your left eye resembled a sunflower

but then i looked into your right eye

i immediately felt sad and hopeless
your right eye was ghostly and lost

your right eye was withering

i’ve always loved you
but for some strange reason
that moment in inspecting your right eye, i fell deeply in love with you

as twisted as it may be, it was more than i could ever imagine

you then declared so much love and care for me

it was more than you’ve ever done, even when we first met

it was highly unusual of you and i didn’t know what to do
so i cried

after years of being numb

i felt what i was most afraid of

they weren’t cries of sorrow and pain like they always are with you

but cries of reflection and having found a peace and sanctuary

it was highly unusual of me and you knew what to do

i went to sleep in subtle shock

and i woke up in the same fashion
i don’t know what’s going to happen anymore

but i will remember last night the most
i don’t know when this side of you will surface again

no matter what you say or do to me from here on out

this will forever linger in my cherished memories

my favorite version of you