India.Arie | Get It Together

(Source: simplyjordyn)

RENAISSANCE

the first was when i was young
when he moved, it quite had stung
he used to push me on the swings
when he left, i clipped my wings

the second, i was too naive
during freshman year, i do believe
he held my hand and led me on
but in the end, i was his pawn

the third was really my true first
this one will always be the worst
i let this one take all my youth
but through it all, i found my truth

you’d think my guard is way up high
from all the times that made me cry
but i am reborn, i am brand new
i learned so much from what i went through

i’ve had a lot of history
but you’re the one i can’t wait to see
you’re a dose i can’t go without
you’re the one i write my poems about

IT IS ABOUT YOU

you occupy my dreams
i barely know who you are
i see you as light beams
i can feel you but you’re so far

restrict your knowledge of my past
i am a canary in a coal mine
these dreadful stories i’ll save for last
until i reinforce my broken spine

you find me rare
i find that taunting
you think i don’t catch your stare
i find you haunting

it’s been years since i’ve felt like this
thank you for being my plot twist

a thing about living in the same place throughout your entire life is that when you see a specific place or hear a specific sound or smell a specific scent, it triggers a specific memory. that’s the silly part.

an amazing thing about living in the same place throughout your entire life is that you can write over that memory. notice how i didn’t say “you can erase the memory” because no matter what, you can’t.

point is, even though you feel stuck in a place you feel too comfortable in, it’s your job to move forward and change things. if you want change, then don’t just sit there. make something different. don’t complain about being bored if you’re not doing jack shit to fix that.

SEVEN

I am
the desires and love you yearn to receive,
the abundant fuel you consume excessively,
the golden, jeweled avarice you reach to keep,
the weights that keep you idle in your seat,
the vengeance you crave to slay the weak,
the jealousy for things you think you need,
the vanity and importance you, yourself can only see.

I am the voice inside that inspires all to be deadly.

i wrote a thing for my elit11 class
it was supposed to be a journal entry about a poem
but i wrote one instead because i’m adrienne
and because i started on the assignment 20 minutes before it was due
it didn’t turn out so bad yey